__ confused

just got home frm aspen.
sleepy.
shall update abt today then.
(:

nthg much interesting happened during curriculum time.
except that we had stupid legacy during english.
so much for those "character assess-ors" coming in.
kerri was saying that we should all sleep and SNORE when they walk in.
lol.
was looking fwd to throwing that long stick aka javelin.
finally
the 145 bell rung.
:D
cheers.
had lunch with niners and zidd at pizza hut.
then started javelin throws.
well
for today's..
i came in 2nd. (13.87m)
but tmrw
there's renee, shannon, azyan...!!!
so much for getting a trophy.
sigh.
got this bad gut feeling that i'd get 4th again this year.
jus like 2004 and 2005.
sighh.
now left with the hope of getting a medal in 4x100m.
*crosses fingers and prays*
): ): ):
went for aspen at 5.
saw calvin.
he owes me lunch and starbucks treat.
*glares
hahah.
oh wells.
having a terrible sore throat now.
:S
sighh.
throat hurts.

shall go sleep now.
damn sleepy.
shot put tmrw.


if someone knows u, yet u dont know him/her, will u get freaked out? cos i do. i hate that. and i hate ppl telling me that they need to talk to me but dowan to say why. sighh. i guess, its just me. ): wat's wrong with me? why cant i keep a low profile for once. sigh. why must everyone know me. damn.

anyw. pray for eewee!!

__ shocked

ME AND MERYL (:


pe was okayy.
pastor roland is quite funny.
lol
had lunch at hawker.
then went to expo on the chartered bus.
sat alone.
): sadly.
oh wells.
met meryl at abt 1pm.
saw my daddy!! (:
i miss my daddy. ALOT.
hmm.
had prayer.
then went for svc.
which was great.
i love my church, realie.
then saw eewee and the rest.
went off with ryl.
had theory
then headed home.

less than 6hrs later.
i receive a msg that eewee is in hospital.
my gosh.
im so super shocked okaye.
pray pray pray!!!!


i feel like crying. so much feelings bottled up within me. mixed feelings. i realie cant take it anymore. now plus this big shock. it has hit a nerve. i think im gonna break down, sooner or later. wish i had smth to numb the pain. not only you're having a bad day. only my God can help me. so many things in my mind right now. i wish i could just end it all. realie.

_ breakfast

my breakfast looks so yummy.
that i jus have to post it here.
lol


yummy aite. ((:



but too bad.
its ALL GONE.
*evil laugh*

__ bleahs

*yawns
jus woke up
leaving soon for post encounter at tct.
but doing thoery hw now.
hmmm.
*yawn
haha. im sleepy man.

had runs in the morning.
late, as usual.
but midway, the venue was changed
due to some primary sch using bedok stadium.
so we went to tampines stadium.
ate a sausage mcmuffin and drank milo.
then ran 800m.
timing was 3min 51 secs.
:S
bad.
sighh
oh wells.
then practised 4x100m relay.
with a tin foil roll as a baton
hah.
courtesy of sarah.
first timing was 1min 7secs
2nd was 1min 6secs.
hahah.
need to work on my push off.
sigh
scared of the gun
gunophobia.
lols.
had lunch with kerri, stef and sarah at swensens
ate chicken baked rice.
so yummy! (:
waited for delinq b
then went home.
slacked arnd at home for abt an hour

then zoomed out for nike.
did four spokes and alot of agility.
man. fitness is like sh*t.
mary was coaching the st nicks ppl.
wonder wat will happen if tkg meets sng in the nats.
wat will mary do?
i.d.i.o.t.
oh wells.
we had frenly agnst sng.
but our combination was a little weird.
haha.
played WA again.
:D
jiamin was my center with su and jodd as the shooters.
saw dawn again!
hahah.
she was GK, or GD.
whichever laa.
(:

rushed off to tct aft trng.
reached at arnd 8pm.
jus in time for worship.
(:
happy to see all my frens and the fishball!! (:
andrea's bottle had a fly.
hahah.
he sat diagonally behind me.
i dint talk to him.
i dunno why, but it felt weird.
like smth holding me back frm talking to him freely.
*shrugs
sigh.
maybe cos im afraid of getting someone else into trouble.
oh wells.
thanks for making the sandwich anyw.
though it wasnt made specially for me.
hah. (:
was super hungry.
but that mortal talk talk talk.
aiyo.
no time to go eat with the others.
): sadly.
rushed home.
ate two pckts of instant noodles
that was my dinner.
to save money.
argh.
i hate being without money.
bleah.
esp over the weekends.
sigh.

gg for post encounter later.
dunno who's gonna teach.
but i hope its my daddy.
(:
i miss my daddy.
ALOT.
<3

kae i shud go do my theory hw now..
:l
loves.

__ exhausted

im so exhausted man.
*blows air out*
another week is over.
week 8 alr
so fast..
soon. october will be here.
argh.
im so tired.
O's.
that big fat "oh".
damnit lar.
here i am freaking over it.
and i have frens who wanna go jamming.
i wonder how they [she] do it man.
maybe i should learn to relax more.
*shrugs*


had no lunch today and went to train the sec ones.
the sec ones are a realie nice bunch of ppl.
jus that they realie make alot of noise.
and they dont listen when they should be.
sigh.
kids.
(:
cute bunch realie.
except for a couple of black sheep.
who i realie dont like.
but i must learn to still do my best. (:


so tired.
waiting for a fren to cme online.
so can chat.
im just realie bored.
though im having a throbbing headache.
grr.


i miss meryl!!
hmm.
((:
meryl, if you read this..
I LOVE YOU!! *hugs*


i miss loads of other ppl too.
hmm.
esp daddy.
ha. (:


long long day tmrw..
track trng wif eighters frm 9-11
project aft that..
then nike trng at 5pm
and lastly, network congre frm 7-9pm.


my dear Lord. i pray that u'll grant me the strength to last through tmrw. and i pray that ur grace and mercy will be upon me. Lord, i love you. (: lastly, bless the people i love. amen.

__

hmm.
tired.
school's realie stressing me out.
bleah.
if i dont have the time to jus relax, play or even chill..
i think i'll go crazy soon enough.
b4 for geog. ):
e8 for chinese.
GOSH.
oh wells.
adelaa's gonna scream mann.
*shudders*


hmm.
had an interesting day anyw.
went to a fren's place for drinks and a show.
had fun.
(:
got a little high though..
(shut up, biatch. i know wat u're thinking. ;) )
hmm.


having trng with the sec ones tmrw.
zidd's not cming cos she has a fever.
means i have to handle them by myself tmrw.
duhh.
crap laas.
amath mass lecture aft sch.
or is it emath?
*shrugs*
watever.
i wont pay attn anyw.
lols.


oh wells
sleepy.



sometimes, things can jus happen without you knowing it'll happen. that's wat makes it exciting yet scary at the same time. love is a beautiful thing. and i want my love to be a beautiful one. i know exactly how i want it. but.. somehow, i just know that im not ready for it. my heart breaking once is already bad enough. its been 2yrs alr, but i cant seem to let go of the hurts. moreover, he left without a reason. 2years and 13 days. and to [you]:: i love you.

__ busyy

yo.
have been so super busy mann.

just got back frm nike trng.
so cool.
need to get my fitness back.
and train hard.
(:


oh wells.
gtg.



gotta mug. :(
gang is clubbing.


bahh
i wanna go!!




ta.